The price of silence...

Hum lavoo se keh na paaye unse haal ye dil kabhi
aur woh samjhe nahin yeh khamoshi kya cheese hai.....
(I could never tell her what my heart echoed and she could never understand the language of my silence.)

Silence is golden, they say.........So -
Is the silence of a mother, who has lost her son in a road rage - golden?
Is the silence of a girl child, who is repetaedly being molested by her neighbour - golden?
Is the silence of a widow, who has lost her husband (an innocent victim of terrorism) - golden?
Is the silence of an officer, who is a witness to corruption in his organization - golden?

How long do we live in fear and avoid realities of life?
How long do we act 'brave and smart'?
How long do we stretch our lips till the muscles pain - when the world inside us is crashing down?

If silence is golden, then what is the price that we pay for it??
The pain - suffering - agony that becomes a part of our life?
The death of dreams where hopes are just an illusion?
The trauma of a forcefully forgotten childhood?
The conflict of inner and outer voice??

Its time we stood up for our rights. It's time we say 'all is NOT ok and I have the right to complain.'
It's time we realise that our vulnerability is not our weakness, it is our strength.
It's time we appreciate the fact that it is OK to reach out for help, it's OK to mess up, it's OK to feel like a crap, it's OK to complain......and
IT IS OK TO EXPRESS.

Yes - it is time we accept that we are humane.

New Year - New Hopes

2010 (Twenty-Ten as people refer to) is finally in..
I have never made any New year resolutions, as I have never believed in them. Seemed to me as quite a silly affair always. But this time - I feel I need to have a strong message for myself......so after a little bit of brainstorming, I am finally up with MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION -----------------
'Get rid of anything that isn't useful, joyful or beautiful'

My new year eased in quite smoothly. Guest at home, quality time spent with my family and visit to (on of my fav hangouts) Odyssey. Later, a solo appointment with my daughter - yes, strictly her & me :)
So, as each day passes by, we endevour to turn our dreams into reality.

JET SET GO.....

Time flies and so do we. Have been keeping busy with home and office, and my journey from home to office and back (how can I not count that ??).

My daughter is 3 yrs old now and it is the biggest pleasure on earth to see her grow. Her new ideas, self-created stories, pseudo-tear drops to get undivided attention......all this and much more makes me run back home everyday.

Office and work - they continue at their own pace, sometimes good, sometimes not so...trying to strike that ever-elusive chord called work-life balance.

Wishing myself All the best !

Eve of 24th March 2007

A reason to survive…….

A zest to start afresh in life
When the sun sets down and the birds set off to fly
I search for a reason why I need to survive.

Those eyes that call me back
That smile that melts me down
Tells me every time
That I need to settle down.

Am all yours, my child
Beside you through thick and thin
To guide you all the way
Please give me some time to be strong within.

I am tired by running
Endlessly for miles
To hold on to few things
Which I thought was mine....

Perhaps I ran too fast
Not checking my pace
And when I look back today
I find all new face.

How long did I run?
From the word “go”
Where did I leave them behind?
I wish I could know.

Life comes in all shapes
This is a strange place
While people have died for want of freedom
I’m lost in this huge space.

Give me some time, my child
I need to stand firm in this space
I need to look back at the mirror
And see if I can recognize this face.

Back on the field.

19th March 2007 - Joined work after a break of exactly eleven and half months.... Was relieved to be able to get back again without any hassle. My daughter is 4 months old now. I used to try and read what goes on inside that small head....left it now, without much success. Hope she understands that I need this life and accepts it readily. If not, I need to redo it all over again.

My job gives me a lot of satisfaction, a kick to live life on my own terms. An unparalleled exposure and experience which I have been missing all this time. Am thankfull to God that I did not face the blues of a 10 hr office work after such a long break...I was anticipating though. YESSSSS, am back.